Voices from Iran

It began like any ordinary morning. My two young children had just been dropped off at preschool and school at 8 a.m. 

Between 9 and 10 a.m., I heard the news live in the room: the United States and Israel had launched strikes on Iran. My only thought was to reach my children as quickly as possible. What normally takes half an hour turned into a desperate three-hour ordeal through gridlocked streets filled with panicked parents. 

Within the first hour, the government shut down cellphone service and the internet. No official announcement was made. People learned of the attack only through word of mouth, smuggled signals, and satellite TV channels. The roads were choked with cars, eyes wide with fear. 

The bombing continued across multiple cities, including Tehran. We waited anxiously for confirmation of one particular target: the residence of Ali Khamenei, the man many Iranians call the butcher of Iran. It took the regime nearly 24 hours to admit he was dead. 

 My six-year-old daughter turned to me and asked, “Mommy, Khamenei is dead?”   

“Yes,” I replied.   

“Hooray!” she said. “Now we will have unlimited access to the internet.” 

 Thirty-seven days later, she still cannot watch her cartoons on YouTube. She remains unconvinced, certain we are lying and that Khamenei is still alive. 

Contrary to expectations, there were no immediate shortages of food or water, though prices rose sharply and frequently. The greater hardship was isolation.  

Day 37. Panic has given way to a strange, tense calm. We celebrated Nowruz—the Persian New Year and first day of spring—amid a full-scale regional war. For the first time in decades, we were spared Khamenei’s hollow annual message. Nothing about him or the Islamic regime ever felt truly Iranian. 

Iranians today are caught between worry and hope.  

Almost everyone I speak with wishes for this spring to mark a true new beginning.

A year without Islamic extremism.

A year of equal rights for every Iranian—regardless of gender, religion, or sexual orientation.

A year to feel proud to be Iranian again. 

A year to celebrate Iran: an ancient civilization that has endured for thousands of years. 

Ever since I can remember, I’ve been waiting. I’ve been waiting for the day I would see Iran without the Islamic Republic. As far back as my age allows me to remember, the first time I became familiar with the meaning of massacre was on 9th of July 1997 in the student protests which began in the University of Tehran and then spread to others. All the years of my life after that were spent with the hope that one day, at last, my Iran would be freed from the claws of a dictatorial regime. 

 But the massacres of 2009 (the green movement protests), 2019 (bloody November protests after the raise in the gas price), and 2022 (the woman-life-freedom uprising after the killing of Mahsa Amini in custody of Hijab police), along with the daily executions throughout these years, left me more devastated and more hopeless. So many years of working in a field directly tied to the internet, first turned me into a “fighter,” and then into an “exhausted” person. A fighter, because every time the global internet was shut down, it took my job away from me, I became unemployed, and then when it was restored, I had to fight much harder than before just to make up for it. Exhausted, because every time you fall and have to get back up again, it throws you back far behind where your strength once was. And I don’t know whether anyone reading this can even imagine what it means to be deprived of the right to use the internet, even for just a few days. 

 In the January 2026, we went out into the streets empty-handed to practice our right to freedom and protest. The massacre on the 8th and 9th of January was a truly horrifying story.

Can you imagine the streets smelling of blood?

Can you imagine that when you leave your house, as you walk, you have to watch your step to make sure you do not step on your compatriot’s blood?

Or can you imagine that in such circumstances, even the phones and the internet were cut off, and you could not find out whether the people around you were still alive?

And can you believe that this is not a metaphor, but a reality that happened in my country? And that massacre happened not the way the media said, not over the course of two days. In eight hours out of those two days. 

But for us Iranians, who for the past 47 years have been deprived of all human rights, the answer is this: if even war would cause us and our dreams to be destroyed but allow the children who come after us to live, then yes, absolutely. 

Set aside the concussion, the injuries, the torn clothes, the serious damage to my eardrum, the bruises, and the shard of glass that was pulled from my eye, along with the horrifying scenes I witnessed that have now turned me into someone living with post-traumatic stress. Put all of that aside and ask me this: in those terrible moments, what exactly were you afraid of? 

That the security forces arrived before the emergency responders, carrying guns as tall as themselves, shouting at us, the injured to disperse us from the scene. And they were forcing the women around me, covered in blood, to put on their headscarves; not to save our lives, but to hide what had been targeted there. 

Today* marks exactly 82 days since the morning I woke up to the news that my friend had been killed by agents of the IRGC in the streets of Tehran, and 32 nights since I went to sleep hearing that the dictator of Tehran was dead. 

We have lived through weeks of emotional turbulence. From shock and disbelief at a massive wave of killings, to moments of grim

satisfaction as, one by one, the oppressors of my people fell. From the fear of airstrikes, sometimes bringing what felt like good news, and other times carrying the deaths of my fellow citizens.

It feels as though we, the people of Iran, have been strapped into the world’s most extreme emotional roller coaster. 

Life under the shadow of war turns the mind toward the future. The past, whatever it was, seems to lose its weight. Survival, and the question of what comes next, becomes the only thing illuminated in the restless mind. And what a bitter irony it is that the most uncertain and obscure stretch of time is now the most compelling subject of our thoughts. 

This regional octopus may no longer possess the strength it had before the war, but when it comes to suppressing its own people, it still holds the upper hand, by far. And now that it has lost much of its power beyond its borders, we are certain it will turn inward, unleashing repression even more brutal and deadly than before, in an attempt to conceal its weakness. 

If that dark future arrives, the writer of these words will likely be among the masses of refugees, forced to leave behind his beloved country. And that would mean the death of a nation, the death of a country. 

[*NB: At the time this was written]

The only reason that has saved our country from being totally torn apart at the hands of this regime are the Iranian people. The people who from the very first day that this regime took control in Iran, fought empty-handed and stood against it to preserve the country. The last instance of this long fight is the nationwide protest that happened on January 8th and 9th 2026 in which, Iranians took over the streets in all 31 provinces of Iran, demanded the dismantling of the regime and for the return of the Crown Prince Reza Pahlavi (the son of Iran’s Shah before 1979), yet they have been massacred in the most gruesome ways within hours. 

This massacre, which in some respects was unprecedented in world history, made the truth about the Islamic Republic clear even to the most hesitant people.  

The sound of fighter jets and drones overhead, the sound of missiles in motion and exploding, the relentless and indiscriminate firing of anti-aircraft guns, and the sound of emergency vehicles and ambulances are all terrifying. But when you are forced to, you get used even to these. Our lives, in whatever form they can continue, still go on. Under this same condition, we still shop, we still cook, and we see our friends, especially these days, which coincide with Nowruz and the visits that come with it. 

Nowruz (the Persian new year celebration that arrives with first day of the spring) is a tradition thousands of years old, and perhaps the deepest bond connecting all Iranians to one another. Throughout the darkest days of past centuries, Iranians have still honored these days, and we are doing the same now, under bombardment, repression, and killing. 

As an Iranian citizen who has probably already lived more than half of their life, I have no particular wish other than the end of this regime of pure evil and decay, a regime that has sacrificed everything we have to its anti-West delusions and planted horror and fear in every single cell of our bodies. 

Even now, as I write this text, I am anxious. I know I will remain anonymous and that no danger threatens me, yet my mind has been shaped by self-censorship. Every text I write, I think about it word by word, about what I would say in an interrogation if I were arrested for writing it, about how I would defend this or that passage in court, and so on. 

I am finishing this note while, from not too far away, I can hear the sound of fighter jets moving and one explosion after another. I do not know where it is, but I would like to imagine that they have killed another one of the regime’s leaders, or bombed a group of repressive forces, or at the very least destroyed part of the regime’s military and security buildings. Of course, in moments like this, all of us also think that perhaps one of the regime’s leaders has taken up residence in our apartment building, and that in a few moments one of these very missiles may hit us too, and everything will be over.

But what choice is there? If, out of this war, a day comes when the Islamic Republic is no longer in power, I will endure every one of these fears and anxieties with all my being, and later I will remember them as the most riveting days of my life. 

As an Iranian, my fear is that this criminal regime will remain and carry out mass killings of people and political prisoners. I hope we are not left alone until we achieve victory. 

In hope of freedom and victory.